Journal Entry for 12/30/2021
ADHD is why I eat until I throw up. Time blindness. Chasing dopamine
So today. I found this tiktok about htis man talking about how if you want things to get done, you have to leave. There was something that is called body doubling that they say helps with getting things done, but if you aren’t trying to doo the thing,then dip. Okay so I showed that to a friend. And then I showed him the reasoning.
Ima play the video back to make sure I get all the points. https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPd6Xkoyg/ here’s the link if you would like to run it back.
But essentially he said
I don’t want your basic ass input
We don’t give a fuck about how YOU think our progress is going
The door is unlocked but not open to suggestions
We like showing the creation not the behind the scenes
So from that he got “that’s why I tell you that you are doing a good job so you keep going”
NOOOOOOOOO
Just no. Lol Just no. But okay.
The other day he made a comment about how I have my living space set up. I said “I would move it more if I could” what was stopping me… judgement of how others would view it. But it makes sense to me so I am going to do it.
Fuck your judgement.
Today I hooked up my Arteck keyboard instead of the Apple one and I must say it does feel nice. I kind of like the feeling of the extra clackity buttons. I know that is not an always thing so I like having the other and the keyboard on the screen. I do like the size of this one better though. I wish it had a Stan dot hold the mini but it will do for today. It is doing better than the big Apple one. That could also be because of the way I am sittting. This balances on my leg quite well
I am obsessed with this vision board and mood board movement. I made one last night
Today I am going to see about setting up payment plans for my debts and do a little budget work. After my little stent of that I am going to see about finding my credit card…which has to be in my house somewhere..so I can actually start uploading this content.
I know you are able to monetize and do all the SEO whatnot, which I will do, but more so for the actual essays and articles Ima be writing. Like about how Object Permanence isn’t just with items. It is with feelings as well. And about how I get more responses back from business customers when I say my name is Kim on a voicemail vs when I say KeiAuna. Or how I can say KeiAuna multiple times have on an name tag and still get called Keisha… and we are even going to get into how good the book Hood Feminism is and all the things.
I have a great feeling about this. I love to write. I just have to make sure I post it. 2022 is going to be a good year.
Blogging and selling my shirts. I have 3 shirt ideas and that will be what it is. yay. I have a simple yet great plan.
Time to make it do what it do.