Little boop #51: just irks
I get more responses back from business customers when I say my name is Kim on a voicemail vs when I say KeiAuna. I can say KeiAuna multiple times have on an name tag and still get called Keisha.
Little Boop #48: Three movies I haven’t seen
At the tinder age of 30 years old, I’m going to watch these movie and give them an honest review and then ask my daddy a couple of questions and see if we align and where his mind goes when he thinks about it.
Little boop #47: new keyboard
Today I hooked up my Arteck keyboard instead of the Apple one and I must say it does feel nice. I kind of like the feeling of the extra clackity buttons. I know that is not an always thing so I like having the other and the keyboard on the screen. I do like the size of this one better though. It is doing better than the big Apple one. That could also be because of the way I am sittting. This balances on my leg quite well.>
Little Boop #43: Vivian
Vivian is a reminder that I have failed again at being fertilized.
Little boop #42: intentionality
I have lost 12 pounds in the past two weeks. I am almost out of social debt. I will continue working from 9 to 5. I will keep weight off. I will continue to look for my happiness. I will not let my happiness lie within a man. I will not lose sight of this goal.>No meaningless behaviors from here on out. I have to start making sure that all of my actions will make me better.
Little boop #41: I’m good. Are you good?
Today is going to be a great day because I woke up before my alarm. Thats how I always know that it a good sign. I have had a realization that I am very open to discuss and help…more so than others. I used to think it was me that had the issue with communication, but I don’t.. I have no problem being completely transparent. Others do. Wheter that be with emotions, or every day feelings, people always try to curate themselves tp a sotuation. Based on how they think will make the best thing happen. I know tnat I am not in control so I say whateer. It is frustrating because I get gaslit out of great conversations that could really solve something. If I feel any sense of discomfort I will just mirror the energy in the room. If that causes you to change you behavior, that means you don’t like your own behaviors.>I can legit say I am matching your energy. THis is my form of masking to save myself>I also have accepted the fact that I don’t have codepency issues. I am very self suffient. My issue is that I am so self sufficeint that I can literally have a whole extra something in my environment and still thrive. It does slow me down, but I do not loso who i am even though I am accomdating to everything.
Little Boop #39: Major Payne
Even though I don’t tell him enough, I love my uncle. He has been my favorite person since the beginning of time. At one point, I thought he was my real dad and my mom was just covering for him. I didn’t even wanna walk at graduation because he was going to be there. Even still at my tinder age of 30, I just want to make him proud.
Little Boop #38: My Supportive Parents
I love that my parents just go with whatever I say. They have their opinions and have no problem sharing, but they just be like “oh okay.”
Little Boop #36: Only Fans
There was this one time I made an Only Fans. I went through the verification and everything. I even created marketing and social media accounts. I got one message and deactivated the whole entire account. Buuuuuut I couldn’t change my snapchat name. For a year, my snapchat name has been SheMadeAnOF.
Little Boop #35: Hairs
I love my locs. I have started this journey so many times. The reason I went through it in the end was to prove that I do not have commitment issues.
Little Boop #34: Internal Anger
I had the revelation that I can say no. I used to get mad at people for asking me stuff because they no I would say yes. Who am I to be mad because they asked. Just because someone asks something doesn’t mean I actually have to do it. I can literally say no.
Little boop #33: I forgot that I cared
Object Permanence isn’t just with items. It is with feelings as well.
Little Boop #32: Green Message
I could be missing out on love because if the message is green, I press that block button. Blue text gang for life.
Little Boop #31: Nap Queen
Between every single task, I must take a nap to reset. Trust and believe I am going to take a nap.
Little Boop #30: The 22nd
If I have to work in this corporate world I have one request. It has always been my jam to not work on the 22nd. That is my one day to just do me.
Little Boop #28: Paper
I love writing. There is something fantastic about the feeling of the writing utensil on the paper. I will always write everything down first. Even if I never look back at it.
Little Boop #27: Party
I just wanna throw my mama a nice birthday party like she used to do for us back in the day. It is a very feasible thing, right?