Journal Entry from 12/29/2021
I am actually typing this on my work computer. That may be what i need to do when I first clock in to be able to get this done
I am trying to find a wy to make more money without getting a second w2 job.
Today is going to be a great day I woke up before my alarm. Thats how I always know that it a good sign.
I have had a realization that I am very open to discuss and help…more so than others. I used to think it was me that had the issue with communication, but I don’t.. I have no problem being completely transparent. Others do. Wheter that be with emotions, or every day feelings, people always try to curate themselves tp a sotuation. Based on how they think will make the best thing happen. I know tnat I am not in control so I say whateer. It is frustrating because I get gaslit out of great conversations that could really solve something.
I have ADHD if I feel any sense of discomfort I will just mirror the energy in the room. If that causes you to change you behavior, that means you don’t like your own behaviors.
I can legit say I am matching your energy. THis is my form of masking to save myself
I also have accepted the fact that I don’t have codepency issues. I am very self suffient. My issue is that I am so self sufficeint that I can literally have a whole extra something in my environment and still thrive. It does slow me down, but I do not loso who i am even though I am accomdating to everything.
I still know me
Little Boop 489 : Cycles
The craziest part is that it all makes sense. Y’all always telling me that I mess up and come up short. Of course ima run to someone that thinks everything I do is amazing. 🫣🫠
Little boop #3: bad service
I just learned something about myself. I do not be paying these niggas any kind of attention. I literally smile and keep walking…unless they say they sell weed. That used to be the easiest way to get my number. But these niggas be so lame. Text “hey” at 4am. Now, I have to block your number.