little boop #541: Whew
Sarah Jakes Roberts said you can’t want to heal and punish yourself at the same time
Little Boop #540: Apartment appreciation
I truly love my unit. There are a few things that I would change, but overall - 2nd favorite property that I have lived in.
little boop #539: best type
This bullet journal was the best idea. My dad even said he may get one.
Little boop #538: doctors
I set out looking for an all black doctor roster. According to ZocDoc and the carrier website, all of them are out of network. Joy
little boop #537: watch
I think my watch is done for. I can no longer touch the screen. Time for a new phone and a new watch. I do have AppleCare on both,
little boop #536: classes
Decided against Coursera, but I do want to take some creative writing classes.
little boop #535: dinner tray
I have 4 dining chairs and no dining table. The package has been delayed more than once. I use this dinner tray faithfully. Not even with the dinner chairs. I open this bad boy and sit cross legged on the bed.
Little Boop #534: Zen Den
During the cruise, my sister said she would be a trainer. Business plan coming soon.
little boop #533: Queen
Queen Latifah is amazing. Like she has been doing her best shit for years. I am sad I am tardy to the party on The Equalizer. I finished all the seasons in like 4 days. Darn good show.
Little Boop# 531: Coursera
Thinking about signing up for coursera for the year, so I can get on my “big brain” energy.
little boop #530: no tv
Crocheting and listening to audiobooks is how I spend a regular evening after my yoga.
little boop #529: book
My book goal is to read 50 books. I will be keeping track on Storygraph.
Journal Entry from 12/31/2021
Okay so yesterday I actually paid for the site
It is live
I am going to go through and start posting these tomorrow. It is December 31st. I did all of the things I said I was going to do. I am so proud of me. I have my goals and plans set for next year.
I have paid to have my site public. I have reached out to get a new therapist. I have reached out to get my sister locks. I have cleaned my apartment.
I don’t know what more to say other than I need to edit these other posts. Now I have to get everything edited and uploaded.
Ima do these and then have actual blog posts.
Little Boop #526: left on my plate
I made a plate for everything I am leaving in 2024. The plate is kind of full. Hopefully that will help lighten the load for 2025.
Journal Entry for 12/30/2021
ADHD is why I eat until I throw up. Time blindness. Chasing dopamine
So today. I found this tiktok about htis man talking about how if you want things to get done, you have to leave. There was something that is called body doubling that they say helps with getting things done, but if you aren’t trying to doo the thing,then dip. Okay so I showed that to a friend. And then I showed him the reasoning.
Ima play the video back to make sure I get all the points. https://vm.tiktok.com/TTPd6Xkoyg/ here’s the link if you would like to run it back.
But essentially he said
I don’t want your basic ass input
We don’t give a fuck about how YOU think our progress is going
The door is unlocked but not open to suggestions
We like showing the creation not the behind the scenes
So from that he got “that’s why I tell you that you are doing a good job so you keep going”
NOOOOOOOOO
Just no. Lol Just no. But okay.
The other day he made a comment about how I have my living space set up. I said “I would move it more if I could” what was stopping me… judgement of how others would view it. But it makes sense to me so I am going to do it.
Fuck your judgement.
Today I hooked up my Arteck keyboard instead of the Apple one and I must say it does feel nice. I kind of like the feeling of the extra clackity buttons. I know that is not an always thing so I like having the other and the keyboard on the screen. I do like the size of this one better though. I wish it had a Stan dot hold the mini but it will do for today. It is doing better than the big Apple one. That could also be because of the way I am sittting. This balances on my leg quite well
I am obsessed with this vision board and mood board movement. I made one last night
Today I am going to see about setting up payment plans for my debts and do a little budget work. After my little stent of that I am going to see about finding my credit card…which has to be in my house somewhere..so I can actually start uploading this content.
I know you are able to monetize and do all the SEO whatnot, which I will do, but more so for the actual essays and articles Ima be writing. Like about how Object Permanence isn’t just with items. It is with feelings as well. And about how I get more responses back from business customers when I say my name is Kim on a voicemail vs when I say KeiAuna. Or how I can say KeiAuna multiple times have on an name tag and still get called Keisha… and we are even going to get into how good the book Hood Feminism is and all the things.
I have a great feeling about this. I love to write. I just have to make sure I post it. 2022 is going to be a good year.
Blogging and selling my shirts. I have 3 shirt ideas and that will be what it is. yay. I have a simple yet great plan.
Time to make it do what it do.
little boop #525: back to reality
The cruise is over. Headed back home. I would love to be one of the people that was getting on the boat. I had a blast. I would love to go again.
Journal Entry from 12/29/2021
I am actually typing this on my work computer. That may be what i need to do when I first clock in to be able to get this done
I am trying to find a wy to make more money without getting a second w2 job.
Today is going to be a great day I woke up before my alarm. Thats how I always know that it a good sign.
I have had a realization that I am very open to discuss and help…more so than others. I used to think it was me that had the issue with communication, but I don’t.. I have no problem being completely transparent. Others do. Wheter that be with emotions, or every day feelings, people always try to curate themselves tp a sotuation. Based on how they think will make the best thing happen. I know tnat I am not in control so I say whateer. It is frustrating because I get gaslit out of great conversations that could really solve something.
I have ADHD if I feel any sense of discomfort I will just mirror the energy in the room. If that causes you to change you behavior, that means you don’t like your own behaviors.
I can legit say I am matching your energy. THis is my form of masking to save myself
I also have accepted the fact that I don’t have codepency issues. I am very self suffient. My issue is that I am so self sufficeint that I can literally have a whole extra something in my environment and still thrive. It does slow me down, but I do not loso who i am even though I am accomdating to everything.
I still know me